MASSIVE MASSIVE MASSIVE TW CUTTING/SELF HARM
Does anyone else ever just touch/see their scars and get very triggered??
It’s just like: Jesus I remember why I did that one and how it felt and the blood rush with it and it gives me endorphins inside and idk it makes me want to relapse more than any upsetting situation.
I’ve been clean since June 2nd though (55 days) so I really can’t afford to do that now…
It’s like the ed. It never truly goes away. Once a cutter, always a cutter. Once a suicidal maniac who attempted 13 times, always a suicidal maniac (I have a scar on my wrist to prove that). Once eating disordered, always eating disordered… I can’t escape and sometimes I wonder… Why bother at all?